A Gout Out for the Mix Tape Universe

"You just havn't earned it yet baby."

I snuck away from class to write my blog tonight. It’s crazy how in my Spanish class the professor with ask general questions to the class and I can answer just about every single one…I mean the entire class looks at me like some crazy nerd child who knows these random Spanish answers…but when he calls on me directly it’s like clockwork that I freeze like a deer in headlights. This means I have yet to be one with the topic. The Zen masters would say I was wobbling. It also shows me (which is always better than telling… it shows me) that I am living the life of a bystander. I must be one of those annoying people who can sit on the sidelines and call the shots, but when am I going to be living and actually producing the life of those virtue-istic endeavors? When am I going to be my best referee and not only call my own shots but tangibly make them happen? As I sit here blogging this almost late for class…the infinity of this moment makes feel as if it will never happen….I just, “haven’t earned it yet baby.”