Thursday, December 22, 2005
12-22-2005
Last lesson my guitar teacher told me that you can see a person’s place in life through the fret board. He said he can hear a difference between Jim Hall now as compared to when he was going through a painful divorce. My guitar teacher said you can see the spiritual place a person is at through the fret board. I sit here today and feel that angst in my art. That lack of solitude. Change is necessary but it’s daunting. It’s daunting to think of all the burdens just piling against me and stopping me from just taking my art my music and writing to the next level. As I type this I come off of a 9 hour day at the grind. All I do is sitting all day and I’m exhausted I just won my second bout with Gout (capitalized to give that proper noun feeling it deserves.) I’m not sure exactly what I did to deserve round two. I did drink last week more than usual but not crazy like my dad =every fucking night. My gout could just be a God-given safe guard against the path my father has cycled through throughout the entirety of my presence here on earth. Can a man have a love affair and still maintain the integrity of his relationship. No I’m not cheating on my girlfriend but I am cheating on my true desires to be an artist when I take to the fancy trivial tasks that get in the way. So what, I suck at Sudoku I’m also not where I want to be on the guitar…what is my priority? I do think a person’s soul shines through fret board. I’m rather soulless right now. But I’m not dead. My biggest fear is that I won’t transcend this life my family so eloquently instilled into me. My girlfriend is home now with food. It's time to prioritize.
Last lesson my guitar teacher told me that you can see a person’s place in life through the fret board. He said he can hear a difference between Jim Hall now as compared to when he was going through a painful divorce. My guitar teacher said you can see the spiritual place a person is at through the fret board. I sit here today and feel that angst in my art. That lack of solitude. Change is necessary but it’s daunting. It’s daunting to think of all the burdens just piling against me and stopping me from just taking my art my music and writing to the next level. As I type this I come off of a 9 hour day at the grind. All I do is sitting all day and I’m exhausted I just won my second bout with Gout (capitalized to give that proper noun feeling it deserves.) I’m not sure exactly what I did to deserve round two. I did drink last week more than usual but not crazy like my dad =every fucking night. My gout could just be a God-given safe guard against the path my father has cycled through throughout the entirety of my presence here on earth. Can a man have a love affair and still maintain the integrity of his relationship. No I’m not cheating on my girlfriend but I am cheating on my true desires to be an artist when I take to the fancy trivial tasks that get in the way. So what, I suck at Sudoku I’m also not where I want to be on the guitar…what is my priority? I do think a person’s soul shines through fret board. I’m rather soulless right now. But I’m not dead. My biggest fear is that I won’t transcend this life my family so eloquently instilled into me. My girlfriend is home now with food. It's time to prioritize.
# posted by Nick D @ 4:33 PM 
