Friday, December 16, 2005
Catch 22
Work and school- So, I really don’t make that much money considering the cost of living here in Denver. I do OK but there’s not really much $$$ for any extras. I figure this is cool because I’m focusing on college and hey who needs the extras? When I talk about extras I mean save up to pay for college kind of thing. The money I live off can’t afford me that. But I can’t really focus on college as much as I’d like because I have a full time job….but if I was to quit my job and attempt to get student loans I could only get $3,000 which is only enough to pay for school. So because I have a job that pays alright I can’t get student loans to help with living expenses. Because I have a job that can’t even pay for my education I have to take the $3,000 in loans and still have to work. So I can’t focus on school as much as I’d like because I’m tied to my job…but if I didn’t have school I ‘d be stupid to leave this job because it pays about double of what any job I know out there would pay…i.e. Starbucks…etc.
Life/School/Work- I’m a curious person and I love to write. I am so happy to be getting my degree in journalism, it just feels right. But with such an important goal comes the sacrifice. I don’t have that extra time to be around my family. I can’t devote time with my fr…wait a minute I don’t have any of those. I think partly the reason I don’t have any of those is because I’m too busy to put much effort into it. On top of that people don’t like me…not in a bad poor me the world hates me kind of way just in the: oh there’s a guy over there…yeah cool, kind of way. I’m mostly unstickable yeah that would be the way I would put it. I might be able to have friends but I think I’d have to put 3,000% to the whole friendship thing…not that I’m not willing to but I don’t have time for that. So I go to school to chase my dreams of a better life but because I’m in school I don’t have time to live my life. I love my girlfriend but most people have more than one tangible friend playing important roles in their life. She has to be it all for me the one I compete with, the one I can confide to, the one I can look stupid in front of, the one I can cry to, and the one that talks to me…etc…..That’s the catch. I need to get talents to fulfill my dreams and hopefully align those dreams with my livelihood but I can’t even share any of those dreams with people that make living the dream worth while.
USA- They have this little tagline car commercial thing for our country??? “Live the American dream.” What they forget to tell you is if your middle class you can either live or dream…you really can’t do both.
And don’t give me that…”Were better off than most people/places” b.s…That’s such an Uncle Tom concept.
Work and school- So, I really don’t make that much money considering the cost of living here in Denver. I do OK but there’s not really much $$$ for any extras. I figure this is cool because I’m focusing on college and hey who needs the extras? When I talk about extras I mean save up to pay for college kind of thing. The money I live off can’t afford me that. But I can’t really focus on college as much as I’d like because I have a full time job….but if I was to quit my job and attempt to get student loans I could only get $3,000 which is only enough to pay for school. So because I have a job that pays alright I can’t get student loans to help with living expenses. Because I have a job that can’t even pay for my education I have to take the $3,000 in loans and still have to work. So I can’t focus on school as much as I’d like because I’m tied to my job…but if I didn’t have school I ‘d be stupid to leave this job because it pays about double of what any job I know out there would pay…i.e. Starbucks…etc.
Life/School/Work- I’m a curious person and I love to write. I am so happy to be getting my degree in journalism, it just feels right. But with such an important goal comes the sacrifice. I don’t have that extra time to be around my family. I can’t devote time with my fr…wait a minute I don’t have any of those. I think partly the reason I don’t have any of those is because I’m too busy to put much effort into it. On top of that people don’t like me…not in a bad poor me the world hates me kind of way just in the: oh there’s a guy over there…yeah cool, kind of way. I’m mostly unstickable yeah that would be the way I would put it. I might be able to have friends but I think I’d have to put 3,000% to the whole friendship thing…not that I’m not willing to but I don’t have time for that. So I go to school to chase my dreams of a better life but because I’m in school I don’t have time to live my life. I love my girlfriend but most people have more than one tangible friend playing important roles in their life. She has to be it all for me the one I compete with, the one I can confide to, the one I can look stupid in front of, the one I can cry to, and the one that talks to me…etc…..That’s the catch. I need to get talents to fulfill my dreams and hopefully align those dreams with my livelihood but I can’t even share any of those dreams with people that make living the dream worth while.
USA- They have this little tagline car commercial thing for our country??? “Live the American dream.” What they forget to tell you is if your middle class you can either live or dream…you really can’t do both.
And don’t give me that…”Were better off than most people/places” b.s…That’s such an Uncle Tom concept.
# posted by Nick D @ 7:55 PM 
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The tagline is "Life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness." There's much written about the cruelty of that word choice.
Pursuit typically implies a dog chasing its tail.
I'm tryin' to get the skinny on the show at the Fox. Unless there's somethin' way better happening at the Hi-Dive, I think it might be worth the drive. What say you?
Pursuit typically implies a dog chasing its tail.
I'm tryin' to get the skinny on the show at the Fox. Unless there's somethin' way better happening at the Hi-Dive, I think it might be worth the drive. What say you?
The old "catch 22"...". So because I have a job that pays alright I can’t get student loans to help with living expenses. Because I have a job that can’t even pay for my education I have to take the $3,000 in loans and still have to work. So I can’t focus on school as much as I’d like because I’m tied to my job…but if I didn’t have school I ‘d be stupid to leave this job because it pays about double of what any job I know out there would pay…i.e. Starbucks…etc."
Such is life. It truly blows, but that which does not kill us only makes us stronger...(That's the best I can do tonight)
You seem to have your head on straight. Keep on the path you are, and things will turn out right for you.
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Such is life. It truly blows, but that which does not kill us only makes us stronger...(That's the best I can do tonight)
You seem to have your head on straight. Keep on the path you are, and things will turn out right for you.
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